Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Hidden Blade by Pippa Dacosta (Soul Eater #1)

Name: Hidden Blade
Author: Pippa Dacosta
Series: Soul Eater
Publisher: Self Published by Pippa Dacosta
Publication Date: July 11, 2016
Number of Pages: 176
Rating: 5 my heart is still out of my body stars


"They call me devil, liar, thief. In whispers, they call me Soul Eater. They’re right. I’m all those things—and more." 

Kicked out of the underworld and cursed to walk this earth for all eternity, Ace Dante finds solace in helping others avoid the wrath of the gods.

But when warrior-bitch, Queen of Cats, and Ace's ex-wife, Bastet, hires him to stop whoever is slaughtering her blessed women, Ace is caught between two of the most powerful deities to have ever existed: Isis and Osiris.

The once-revered gods aren’t dead.

They’re back.

And Ace is in their way.

Welcome to a New York where the ancient gods roam.
 

Review:

Pippa Dacosta had done it again. I can't trust my heart around that woman, she tears it out mercilessly.

I'm not growing used to seeing it outside my body. But that's the thing about Pippa, multilayered characters, great actions scenes and an emotional rollercoaster can be expected EVERYTIME you pick up one of her books.

Pippa Dacosta is one damn awfully good author. And I just.... well, it's hard to review each and every one of her books considering I'm really trying to avoid being repetitive. Since I had some time to lick my wounds, here I shall attempt another try.

Pippa had created a New York were the ancients gods roam free, there are demons of course and soul devouring monster but mostly Egyptician myth.

In that regard it kind of reminded me of Gods Misbehaving or was it Gods Behaving Badly? you know that book with the greek gods...? only better.

anyway, Ace and Shu and Bas and Ozzy were all great characters. though Bas was my favorite.

I really do feel bad for Ace for all he has been through. suddenly living forever feels more like an awful punishment than anything else.

shit, I'm bad at this. in format it's a bit more like The Girl From Above series, but really this is a different beast... with all the trademarks and the right choices and the heart out of your body ending.


an ARC was kindly provided by Pippa Dacosta in exchanged for an honest review. On behalf of full disclosure I'll admit that didn't stop me from purchasing my own copy

Thursday, June 30, 2016

Chaos Rises by Pippa Dacosta (Chaos)

Name: Chaos Rises
Author: Pippa Dacosta
Series: Chaos
Publisher: Self Published by Pippa Dacosta
Publication Date: June 29, 2016
Number of Pages: 288
Rating: 5 demons are hot and I'm going weeee! stars


'When the veil fell, any half bloods not strong enough to withstand Chaos were torn apart. Some, like me and my brother, survived The Fall. Most did not.

That's the good news. The bad news saw a whole other world try and devour ours. Demons, we call them. They came in countless waves. Destroying. Killing. Many people thought it was the end...

The Fall lasted a week. 

Tens of thousands died. 

Hell almost claimed our world as its own. 

And then, from one day to the next, it was over. The veil came back, stronger than ever. I'm not sure if anyone knows how it was put right. But I do know it's been six months since The Fall, me and my brother are on the run, and the leftover demons aren't the most dangerous things in LA. 
We are.'

***

"They have no defence against chaos." ~ Asmodeus, Ties That Bind, #5 The Veil Series.

Set in the same 'world' as the Veil Series, Chaos Rises, #1 The Chaos Series will feature some of the characters we love (and hate?), and also introduce some new faces. 

The streets of LA are about to become a demon proving ground. Chaos will find a way. And as the Prince of Greed once said, "When chaos reigns, the veil falls."

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Review:
This is going to be a very short review, with a need to know info only.

Basically here is what you need to know:
1. Gemm is awesome
2. The world post The Veil series is scary awesome shit and so thrilling you need to read this.
3. Demons everywhere, sexy demons, maniluating demons, demons communication. Damn, but when you read this book you realize they are different- the way they act, think, demonstrate their power. and Damn are they HOT or what?
4. Twists, turns everywhere, you don;t know who to trust. You can't be sure what will happen next. or in other words- Pippa's usual trademark of messing with your feeling and your mind is evident here.
5. Gemm really loves and cares for her brother, their connection is unique and I personally think it added a lot to this book and their characters. Don;t get me wrong, if you read The Veil series than you know Muse and she's made of stardust, but Gemm and Dell's sibling relationship? I loved that.
6. You can read this book and you wouldn't be lost even if you are not familiar with The Veil series

An ARC was kindly provided by the Ever Awesome Pippa Dacosta in exchange for an honest review. We have a deal, Pippa and I, it's a simple one really- she writes awesome things and I read them (Thus, she gives me my fix of much needed things that were written by Pippa Dacosta and I am on the Rollercoaster!!!). Sorry, this is an honest review, but I am a fan of the author and her other works, so I can't promise I am not completely biased in her favor as I need more Pippa's books. :D

Also, this is now on Amazon for 0.99$

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Forevermore by Kristen Callihan- IT'S A BLITZ!!!!!




BOOK INFORMATION

Title: Forevermore
Author: Kristen Callihan
Series: Darkest London, #7
On Sale: June 28, 2016
Publisher: Forever
Formats: Mass Market & eBook
Price: $7.99 USD

Isolated and alone, Sin Evernight is one of the most powerful supernatural creatures in heaven and on earth. As an angel of vengeance, he hunts down the darkest evil, but when his long-lost friend, Layla Starling, needs him, he vows to become her protector. Even though she will be horrified by the man he has become.

Now a famous singer and the toast of London, Layla believes that Sin is only here to guard her from rabid fans and ardent suitors. However, the truth is far more sinister. Desperate to avoid losing Layla a second time, Sin will face a test of all his powers to defeat an unstoppable foe - and win an eternity with the woman he loves.


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Moonglow, #2
Winterblaze, #3
Shadowdance, #4
Evernight, #5
Soulbound, #6
Forevermore, #7




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USA Today bestselling author Kristen Callihan is a writer because there is nothing else she'd rather be. She is a three-time RITA nominee and winner of two RT Reviewers' Choice awards. Her novels have garnered starred reviews from Publishers Weekly and Library Journal, as well as being awarded top picks by many reviewers. Her debut book, Firelight, received RT Book Reviews' Seal of Excellence, was named a best book of the year by Library Journal, best book of Spring 2012 by Publisher's Weekly, and was named the best romance book of 2012 by ALA RUSA. When she is not writing, she is reading.


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Excerpt:

One might think being an immortal was a blessing, never grow old, never grow sick, never die. At one time in St. John Evernight’s life, he considered it a blessing too. He would be around long after the simple humans who surrounded him were nothing but dust. They could stare all they liked at his “strange” hair and frosty green eyes. They could gossip and speculate about him until they lost their voices. It didn’t matter. He was untouchable, and they were but fragile sacks of blood and bone.
How naive he’d been. Because living forever merely meant a lack of escape from the desolation of regret and loneliness. He knew now that he could walk down Jermyn Street endlessly, see the sands of time shift and rearrange before him, and never be a part of life.
Brooding, Mr. Evernight?” 
Sin almost jumped at the sudden sound of Augustus’s voice by his side. Damn, the blasted man loved to startle him. He gave Augustus a passing glance. Dressed in conservative brown tweed and a bowler hat, the angel appeared every inch the English gentlemen, save for his dark coloring that marked him to be from Southern climes.
It’s really quite the trick, popping up like a soap bubble whenever you choose, Augustus. You must teach me how one day.”
The man’s mouth twitched. “With your luck, you’d pop up in the middle of a parliamentary session.”
Yes, Sin had abominable luck. Or perhaps it was more a matter of making abominable choices.
You’re brooding again,” Augustus remarked.
I’m not brooding. This is simply my face.”
Augustus snorted but remained silent as they walked along, past Trafalgar Square and down Whitehall.
Care to tell me why you called me here?” Sin asked, when they came upon the grounds of Westminster. For the past year, Sin had been in Rome, soaking in the warmer temperatures, drinking espresso in cafes along the Piazza della Rotunda, under the shade of the ancient Pantheon. He’d eaten simple but delicious food, and listened to the rapid fire of Italian, and felt…well, not peace, but a measure of contentment.
Until Augustus had sent for him. Returning to England sat like a stone in his gut. But he would obey. Augustus was his mentor, and the man who’d given him salvation. The price was a lifetime of servitude. To be fair, his role was for justice, not evil, which was a nice change of pace.
A massive dray rattled past, kicking up dust and sending a fug of stale manure into the air. They hurried past the cloud and headed for Westminster Abbey. Sin hadn’t planned on visiting today, but here they were all the same. He wondered if Augustus somehow had led him to their usual meeting place or if Sin had merely headed that way because of the man’s sudden arrival.
He’d like to think the latter. It did not sit well with him having another control his actions. Not since a certain evil fae had kept Sin as a blood slave for years. Even now, the memory made his stomach turn.
Not a soul acknowledged them as they walked through the abbey and into the cloisters. Here, a rare bit of sunlight peeked through the constant cloud cover and cast lacy shadows along the walkway. The sound of their boot heels clacked out a steady rhythm as they strolled along.
Layla returns to London tonight.”
At the mention of her name, Sin’s heart stilled within his breast. He’d tried his best to ward off all finer feelings, to remain numb, detached from life. And yet he could not, for the life of him, remain immune to Layla Starling. His childhood friend. The one woman who could take his breath, his reason, simply by laying eyes upon her.
Stuffing his shaking hands into his trouser pockets, Sin forced himself to keep an even tone. “So then I am to begin watching over her?”
God, but he did not want to. It would be agony, staying so close to her and never being allowed to show his true feelings. And yet a thrum of anticipation went through him at the mere prospect of seeing Layla once more.
Are you ready?” Augustus asked, though his expression told Sin he fully expected an affirmative answer.
So Sin told him the only truth left to him. “I will not fail her.”


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Thursday, May 26, 2016

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About BEDMATES
Everyone makes mistakes, especially in college. But when you're the daughter of the President of the United States, any little slip up is a huge embarrassment. Maddie McGuire's latest error in judgment lands her in police custody, giving the press a field day. Agreeing to do community service as penance and to restore her tattered reputation, Maddie never dreams incredibly good looking but extremely annoying vice president's son, Jake Simmon, will be along for the ride.

Recently returning from Afghanistan with a life-altering injury, Jake is wrestling with his own demons. He doesn't have the time or patience to deal with the likes of Maddie. They're like oil and water and every time they're together, it's combustible. But there's a thin line between love and hate, and it's not long before their fiery arguments give way to infinitely sexier encounters.

When Jake receives devastating news about the last remaining member of his unit, the darkness he's resisted for so long begins to overwhelm him. Scared to let anyone close, he pushes Maddie away. But she isn't about to give up on Jake that easily. Maddie's fallen for him, and she'll do anything to keep him from the edge as they both discover that love is a battlefield and there are some fights you just can't lose.

About Nichole Chase
Nichole Chase is the New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of Suddenly Royal and Recklessly Royal. She lives in Georgia with her husband, toddler, superhero dog, Sulcata tortoise, and two cats. When not devouring novels by the dozens, you can find her writing, painting, crafting, or chasing her daughter around the house while making monster noises.

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Girl From Above: Trust (The 1000 Revolution Book 4) by Pippa Dacosta

Name: Girl From Above: Trust

Author: Pippa Dacosta
Series: The 1000 Revolution
Publisher: Self Published by Pippa Dacosta
Publication Date: March 1, 2016
Number of Pages: 224
Rating: 5 awesome stars! my heart is breaking but it feels so good. 


“I didn’t sign up to die a hero.” ~ Caleb.

Chen Hung closes in. 
The nine systems hang perilously close to a second fatal Blackout. 
The lives of billions of people are at stake. 
Does Captain Caleb Shepperd have what it takes to save the nine systems, or just himself?

Caleb never wanted to be a hero. That was his brother’s dream. Keep it simple, get away clean. Flying a ship packed with explosives into Janus orbit station isn’t simple, and there ain’t no way he’s getting away clean. 

He knows the Fenrir Nine have sent him on a suicide mission, but he’s not about to lay down his life for them. He’s not a hero, and he sure ain’t no fool despite what the Nine must think. There’s another way, he just has to figure it out before the bomb he’s carrying ticks down to zero. 

One survived; against the odds, the brutality, and the betrayal, she survived, but inside, in the part of her that’s real, she’s broken. Broken in ways that cannot be fixed. 

She’s going back to where it all began, to Janus—to Chitec, to the ‘man’ who made her. It will take all that she is, all that she was, and all that she could be, to save the nine systems from the synthetics. 

She will not fail. 

“I am One, and I cannot be stopped.”

Review:


now that I finally have some free time after quite a few hectic months (though really I feel as if I always say I have a hectic time, I think the right thing to say is that I can finally, if only for a while, focus on some of the things I love- like, books) I am finally going to attempt at a review of this book and the entire series. 


Let's talk about trust, shall we? what is trust? do we really trust the people around us? 
I know in my life there are some people I most definitely don't trust. Then there are those I am neutral about, which is really most people, and there are those few that I really do trust. 



As for the neutral part that's a given. As for those I trust- why do I trust them? I think it's because I know them well enough to understand them, their motives, I know their inner workings. thus I can trust them. they still might hurt me, but really there are few things they could do that would really surprise me and change the whole way I see them. 



Girl from Above is not like that. One trusted someone she shouldn't have and now she is paying the price. Caleb can't trust Fran and let's face it, Haley couldn't trust Caleb. 



Can One trust Caleb? 
I don't know. I think she can trust him to fight for her. to care. but I don't think she can trust him with no limits. 



Can Caleb trust One? 
I think so. but this trust is also limited. there are things One would or wouldn't do that Caleb would find hard to accept. truthfully, I think the main problem is Caleb's own insecurities but that's another matter. 



This book is the final fight. alliances are made and and shifts and break. Revenge is an all around dish served for all. Goals, wishes, targets- they all come to a final conclusion and some big unfair and totally heartbreaking sacrifice. Rumpelstiltskin in Once Upon a Time said that "all magic comes with a price" 
truth be told, "everything comes with a price". 



So in specific terms, this book is awesome. this book is an evil unicorn. it is a ________ (something I don't know how to describe) to a really _________ (something I have no words for) of a series. 



Fact is, Pippa is awesome, Pippa is mean and cruel and evil. I adore Pippa. 



As for the series as a whole-



One was a great protagonist. I can't help but love her. She was determined and cruel and calculated and kind and loyal and innocent. she was a mixture, a machine but oh so human. 
and Caleb is a twisted cold hearted bastard. but he is more than that. he is broken. he hurts. in a way he is a lost man. he is not a decent guy, but he is someone that tries to act decent every once in a while and just doesn't know how. he is a rebel. he is complicated (if you right in Facebook it's complicated what you actually mean is that you are dating Caleb. he is his very own brand of complications)



their story was one of a kind for me.



the ending was perfect, even if my little battered, broken, frozen heart almost couldn't handle it. 



I have only one problem- Fran.... she's cool, but, well, I guess you could say I have issues. Pippa and I emailed about it. 



The thing is that there are no hundreds upon hundreds of pages full of angesting, emotions and over all emotional pain. Emotion exist but do not take a front center and certainly are not discussed all the time if at all. Yet, there are emotions, there is genuine pain and genuine feelings. The relationships are messed up and complicated at best. The relationships are almost realistic. I say almost realistic because not every relationship is that complicated. Love has more than one layer and truth is an abstract term. what about truth in love? hell if I know. 



And I love this series so much I had to share it with the people in my life. my friend read the first book (she loved it). my father also read the books. he said they were good. however  he had two problems: 




1. he preferred Fran

 she's wild and lively and crazy and feisty and human. personally I prefer One (I can relate to her better). 



2. Caleb

 my father said he couldn't understand him. I tried to explain to him.

Caleb came from a broken home, as a result he needed to prove himself, he needed to achieve and overcome his insecurities and past wounds. Which is why Caleb was extremely ambitious. 

his mourning over Haley is not a mourning over a dead beloved who was his soul mate and to whom no one could ever compare. 
Caleb's mourning over Haley is his mourning over himself. 
Caleb was so ambitious, dating Haley was a step in his ladder. since she was kind, smart, good looking and rich that wasn't too complicated or a hard thing to do. 
still, something happened. because of his ambition Caleb stood on the sidelines one night and watched something horrible happen. he broke a trust and lost a part of his humanity. The thing he did wasn't fruitive and Caleb ended up in jail. 
So Caleb did something horrible because of his ambition and he did it in order to further himself up the ladder. he paid a terrible price but did not recieve the prize he hoped for, instead he was punished. Suddenly looking in the mirror didn't feel so good anymore. what he saw was something he didn't recognize or liked to see. And so, Caleb's aiding the rebels is part of Caleb trying to get some of his humanity back, it is about Caleb seeking redemption. 



I really have only one complaint. this series about space has no aliens. it could have been cool if there were some. besides that- pure awesome and one of my favorite series ever. 

many thanks for the ever awesome Pippa Dacosta for the ARC. she's a queen.

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Girl From Above: Trapped (The 1000 Revolution Book 3) by Pippa Dacosta



Name: Girl From Above: Trapped

Author: Pippa Dacosta
Series: The 1000 Revolution
Publisher: Self Published by Pippa Dacosta
Publication Date: November 9, 2015
Number of Pages: 182
Rating: 5 awesome stars! 1002 stars and forever love. 

"When are you going to stop running, Caleb?" 

Taking the synth to the casino capital of the nine systems seemed like a great idea at the time, but as Caleb Shepperd's many enemies close in, he only has one way out. He must betray #1001. 

Caleb can't make the same mistake twice. Can he? 

#1001 has a price on her head. The Fenrir Nine and Chitec will stop at nothing to secure her secrets. The very same secrets that riddle her synthetic mind with faults. 

Her systems are failing. 

And the one man she's come to trust may prove to be her enemy.

The sizzling, fast-paced, and action packed science-fiction continues in Trapped. 

Reading order: 
Girl From Above 1: Betrayal 
Girl From Above 2: Escape 
Girl From Above 3: Trapped 
Girl From Above 4: Trust (coming soon) 


Review:

Here is the thing. I'm speechless. Completely, utterly speechless for the first time in my life. I want to give this book 1002 stars (1001 for One and 1 for Caleb. I love the guy)

I can't explain this book- what it did to me. It wasn't the plotline, it wasn't the never-ending action, the backstabbing, the pain, the heartbreak, the death, the sweet feelings and the tears. It wasn't 1001's humanity or Caleb's dark shattered heart. It wasn't the revenge, it wasn't the sit at the edge of your chair can't tear myself away from the book things. It wasn't even the fact that these characters got me and gut me so much, craving a hole in my iced heart and making camp there. 

Yes, all of that was in the book. yes, I love this book so much for each and every thing that happened and for each and every character (Mostly One and Caleb, of course). 

But the thing is, what makes this book so meaningful for me, so loved, cherished and well just fucking awesome is the fact that ever since I started reading this series I wished for a book like this one. I wanted this book, I wanted a book exactly like this. 

It was as if the author read my most secret wishes and decided to put them in the book. Psyche. 

A copy was provided by the ever-awesome Pippa Dacosta in exchange for an honest review

Friday, December 11, 2015

The Dogs By Allan Stratton

The Dogs
By Allan Stratton
September 1, 2015; ISBN 9781492609384
Book Info:
Title: The Dogs
Author: Allan Stratton
Release Date: September 1, 2015
Publisher: Sourcebooks Fire

Praise for The Dogs:

“Stratton masterfully constructs a creepy gothic setting…A monstrous, stalking father, unhinging nightmares, a ghostly boy, wild dogs, and a moldy basement add creepy deliciousness to a murder mystery and tale of a boy who, in trying to solve a mystery, may just discover what a loving family might be. An engrossing blend of murder mystery and family story.” –Kirkus STARRED Review
"There’s fear aplenty in Allan Stratton’s The Dogs and a tantalizingly uncertain element of the supernatural… refreshingly like an old-fashioned mystery, but the passion and terror underlying (our hero's) own family give it emotional complexity and suspense." - Toronto Star
“A real page-turner... [The Dogs] stayed with me for days, author Allan Stratton having created an unsettled aura the likes of which Alfred Hitchcock and Stephen King routinely built into their work, too... Stratton’s depiction of setting and characters is masterful, and his ability to create tension and keep readers on edge is equally strong.” – Montreal Gazette
“A chilling tale of a mother and son on the run, from the author of the award-winning Chanda’s Secrets…Written in accessible prose, The Dogs manages to thrill while exploring the mindset of the victim in ways that are both insightful and affecting, artfully portraying permanent state of dread and a creeping self-doubt. This is an accomplished, gripping and thoughtful story, whose dramatic ending delivers on every level.” –The Guardian
“Brilliant, page-turning, and eerie. Had me guessing to the very end.” –Joseph Delaney, author of The Last Apprentice series.
“An Agatha Christie mystery novel on cocaine” –SLJ Teen Newsletter
Summary:
Constantly on the run from a dangerous father, Cameron’s used to pushing away the trauma of his past. But when his mother moves them to an old farmhouse in the middle of nowhere, he discovers that there are some things you can’t escape.

His new schoolmates taunt him about the bloodthirsty dogs that supposedly haunt the farm, and Cameron soon stumbles upon a child’s drawings in the cellar that depict a violent history. The line between reality and nightmare begins to blur as the house’s horrifying secrets mix with fragments of Cameron’s own memories—some best left forgotten.


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Allan Stratton is an internationally published playwright and author. His awards include a Michael L. Printz Honor Award, multiple ALA picks and the Independent Publisher Book Award.
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Excerpt from The Dogs:
I
go up to my bedroom. It’s at the top of the living-­room stairs, next to a small bathroom and near the big room over the kitchen. That’s the room Mom thought I’d pick, and I would have, except for the trapdoor in the ceiling. It’s sealed up with nails and paint. When I saw it, I asked Mom what she thought was up there.
“An attic.”
“Yeah, but what’s in it?” I pictured a dried-­up body, half eaten by mice. I mean, who seals up an empty attic? Anyway, that’s why I didn’t choose the big room. If I don’t see the hatch, it’s easier not to think about what’s on the other side.
The bedroom I picked came with an oak desk, a wooden chair, a night table with a lamp, and a metal-­frame bed. The mattress is new, unlike the wallpaper, which is stained and peeling along the seams near the window. Under the peels are layers of older wallpaper, one with little orange canaries on it.
The window over my desk is the one good thing about my room. Looking out, I can see the barn with the fields all around and the woods in the distance. At night, the stars and the glow of the porch-­lamp light up bits of the barn and the first row of cornstalks.
I start to do my homework. Pretty soon, though, I’m looking out the window, watching the stars come out and trying to forget my life. I wonder who all are staring up at the moon right now. Are they wondering the same thing?
Out of the corner of my eye, I catch something moving by the barn. When I look, it disappears. Wait. There it is again at the cornfield. Some movement, some thing.
I count to twenty. Nothing. I relax. Then—­did that stalk move? I turn off my light so whatever’s out there can’t see in.
It’s probably just a breeze.
Or Mr. Sinclair. Or Cody and his gang.
Don’t be nuts. If it’s anything, it’s an animal. A coyote or a dog.
The dogs. I close my curtains. If I don’t look out, whatever’s there will go away. But I can’t not look. I sneak a peek. Nothing. Wait. By the barn. Is that a boy?
I blink. The boy is gone.
My eyes scan the barn. There’s a missing board up in the loft area. The more I stare, the more I think I see the boy staring back at me from the shadows behind the hole. He’s maybe ten, very pale, and he’s wearing one of those old Davy Crockett hats with the raccoon tail hanging from the back. Are those freckles on his cheeks?
Don’t be crazy. The barn’s too far away to see stuff like that.
The face disappears. I stare till I see double. The face swims back into view.
This is too weird. I close my eyes and try to clear my head by thinking about the bus and the Cheerios between Benjie’s teeth. When I open my eyes, everything’s normal. There’s no face. Nothing. Just the night.
And that’s how it stays.
I close my curtains, get ready for bed, and crawl under the covers. I hate the way I scare myself. It’s always the same and it’s always stupid. And the scared-­er I get, the more I talk to myself, which is even stupider.
Besides, even if there was a boy in the barn, what’s scary about that? Maybe he just likes exploring places like I do. Still, it’s weird he’s on our property, especially so late. I wonder where he lives.
Who says he lives anywhere? Who says he’s real? What parents let a kid that young wander around at night?
Mom knocks on my door. “Cameron?”
“Yeah?”
“May I come in?”
“Sure.”
I know she wants to give me a good-­night hug, but I told her to stop it when I was twelve, so she just stands in the doorway. “I know you didn’t mean anything. You’ve had a hard day. I’m sorry I overreacted.”
I hate it when she’s all understanding. It makes me feel like an even bigger jerk. “That’s okay. Mom, I really am sorry.”
“I know.” She pauses. “’Night, then. I love you.”
I want to say the l-­word back, but I feel dumb, so I just say,
“You too.”
Mom closes the door. I go to turn off my lamp and get flashes of Mr. Sinclair and the dogs and the kid I maybe saw in the barn. What’s out there in the dark, circling the house when we’re asleep? What could be out there?
I leave the light on.